Hello Beloved,
I am going to add to a earlier post ( Feb. 5, 2017) called Darkness v. Night. In this post I shared with you the meaning of " darkness and of night. I know I am not the only one who has ever felt this way.
Today in church our Pastor made a comment about what a fellow said in his testimony last week. It was on the word " suddenly". How all the sudden ly's we have experienced have had to take time, preparation, and effort to become our ' suddenly'. It is a process. ie.... a football player does not get to be the star player without time and effort put forth. It takes practice, practice, practice, it does not happen overnight. Our suddenly takes time too.... I know mine sure did.
I spent a lifetime beating myself up; to get to the place I was at 650' below the surface of the earth. I was always taking the wrong path in my thoughts.. I read something in a book of fiction that went something like this. God speaking; I don't wonder what you will do or what you will chose I already know... God knows how many times it will take to reach you or that you will hear Him. It may be 50 times but, it all starts with the first time and goes on until .... God says good we are almost there and then when you reach # 50 and you get it! Then you can start to build ... Honey, there is no freedom in guilt.
I always thought I was in control and could do what I wanted... My safe place was darkness. I knew what it felt like and there were no surprises.. I could opt out at any time. It would be my time and choice... BUT God.
At 650' below the surface I found my safe place in the darkness, a place I could not see in nor feel in. It was a place of NO HOPE, NO LIGHT, and NO GOD. When I look back on that time in the darkness of no hope , no light, no God I feel like I was in Hell. By God's grace I came back to the surface not only did I see natural light but I think for the first time I saw HOPE. I am on a new path now and it has the LIGHT on it every step of the way ... Christ Jesus is the LIGHT in this cruel and evil world we live in . I am so grateful that He is choosing to walk with me. I had a suddenly this morning when the Pastor spoke so briefly on the word.... suddenly.
Remember to Smile: It is a free gift from God for you to share with all you meet. You are at your most beautiful when you do. God Bless In the love of Christ Jesus, your sister in Christ ,vickie
