Monday, April 27, 2015

Glimpse Into Change: Part 4

Hello Beloved


TEMPERANCE: Self- Control. I am so learning what this means.. I have  learned that I have to have self-control because of the Diabetes.. I will not let it beat me.. I am in this for the race for the prize: LIFE ETERNAL. I want to win this race not as the fastest or the best, I just want to win for the  prize of EVERLASTING LIFE spent with my Jesus.
I have lived almost 62 years and I should have known better.  some of us learn faster than others, some of us (ME) are just slower at figuring it all out.. We are all in the same race.  It is called life, and I pray that we all finish it with the prize before us .. ERTERNAL LIFE .
In Ecclesiastes 9:11
" The race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong"
1 Corinthians 9: 24 Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receive the prize, so RUN that ye may obtain.
Hebrews 12:1
" let us lay aside every weight and the sin which doth so easily beset us and let us run with patience the race that is set before us."


In Lamentations 3:22-23 ( paraphrased)
" His mercy is renewed every morning."
Lamentations 3:25
" The Lord is good unto them that wait for Him, to the soul that seeketh Him."
So for me the race is on and strong going.. I plan on finishing this race.. The race called Life. Not just because of the Diabetes but mostly because I really want to have ETERNAL LIFE with Jesus.
Now, about FAVOR .  Now who would have ever thought that losing your hearing could be favor?  I do. I am not able to hear a lot of what is going on around me and I am able to keep my attention on God.  To me the hearing loss is being able to be shut in with God all the time.  I love it!!!!
The Diabetes is scary ( it is a life sentence without parole) but it is not near as scary as being in hell without my Jesus.  I am learning that God is in control of everything..  Just like what I have told you today. God was the author not me. He just used me as a tool to write this.. New Tongue, that what it is.  God speaking but using me as the instrument of speech.  In closing I would like to say a prayer with you.
Dear Lord Jesus
For all who will hear this or read this I pray that you would speak to their heart and open them up to working on the relationship that they want with you.  I pray that they will ask you in and pour you a cup of tea and have a nice long chat with you.  I pray Father that you would bless each one today. I thank you for always being with me even when I didn't believe it, and for helping me to change.  I love you Lord Jesus and I pray your will be done. In Jesus name Amen.


Believing in the Lord Jesus Christ has made a huge difference in my life.. I would not change it now for anything.  Smile: it is a free gift from God for you to share with everyone you meet. God Bless. your sister in Christ Jesus. vickie

A Glimpse Into Change: Part 3

Hello Beloved,


Galatians 5:22-23


It is the FRUIT OF THE SPIRIT: LOVE , JOY, PEACE, LONGSUFFERING, GENTLENESS, GOODNESS, FAITH, MEEKNESS, TEMPERANCE
In relationship to eating and my life.
LOVE: We all know about that one, I love my  husband, children, family, church family ect...  ME. I LOVED FOOD! I loved it 230 pounds worth!!
Joy: Not a lot. Not even in the food I was eating. I ate to eat.
PEACE: What is peace? I was not even peaceful in my choice of eating whatever I wanted. I just did not have any joy or peace. I really needed to find them , but they just seemed elusive ( hard to grasp)
LONG SUFFERING: ( Patience)  I did not have much. I wanted everything to be instant ...like food, quick and fast.
GENTLENESS: ME? No not always. There is more than just kindness here.
GOODNESS: Me? Kindness, virtue, generosity... Again not always
FAITH: oh, yeah.  I had lots of faith for YOU! but not for myself.. I could trust for YOU ! not for me.. I was just not good enough..again.
MEEKNESS:  Not inclined towards anger or resentment: patient and mild. again not me.
TEMPERANCE: ( Self-control) I really lacked big time in this one. I had NO self-control.. Not in my eating habits or in my temperament. I ate what I wanted and did the same with my mouth, spoke what I wanted. Both were wrong.
But like everything in life , there is a up and a down, right and wrong, good and evil.. So with me the other side of Galatians 5:22-23 is this.
I am in a learning phase of life. I am making progress but I still make mistakes too.
LOVE: This one has not changed much.
JOY: I am learning to rejoice and be glad in the place I am right now. Today no matter what.
PEACE: I am learning that my peace is the security I get from knowing that Jesus Christ loves me even when I am not so loveable.  It is a time of quite and listening to God. ( hearing loss)
LONG SUFFERING: This one is probably the hardest one for me of all the Fruits of the Spirit.
Long suffering : bearing injuries, troubles, patiently for a long time, endurance of trials;  I do that but, FORTITUDE: ( this is with the long suffering)  is , firm courage, patient, endurance of trouble or pain, forbearance ( self-control) . I am learning to have fortitude, having firm courage to stand for what I believe in and the forbearance or self -control. It is a hard battle, but one in which I will fight to the end of my race.( life)
Gentleness: of good birth, refined , polite, generous, kind, tame, Just a few words to describe gentleness. I am of good birth, not only from my mama and daddy but mostly because of my REBIRTH  into Jesus Christ.  I will certainly try to more of the others, generous, kind, tame, Please just bear with me as I learn all this new behavior.
GOODNESS: I am getting this one even as I write this all down.  FAVOR. More in a minute.
FAITH: Hope, trustworthiness, fidelity ( devotion to duty)
My faith has grown by leaps and bounds in the past several months. Not only for you but for me too. I live in hope now trying to be faithful in my devotion to duty as a wife, mother and child of God. By learning and spreading and listening and doing and learning how to grow in faith.
MEEKNESS:  Mildness, humility ( humility: the state or quality of being humble; acts of self-abasement) WOW! Humility means humble, humble means not proud, modest, knowing one's shortcomings. Yeah!! I got this one for sure.  I KNOW ALL OF MY SHORTCOMINGS.

Sunday, April 26, 2015

A Glimpse Into Change: My Journey In The Race of Life Part 2

Hello Beloved,


How does one effect the other? Well, I was just getting ready to find out.
All of my life I have felt inferior to EVERYONE!!   I was never as _________, you fill in the blank.
I probably already had it filled in.. I was the last of four girls in my family. My sisters were and are beautiful , smart and talented... you name it .. They are the three  'BEST'  gifts I have ever received.. My brother always told me that by the time they got to  ( #7) me.. they had used all the good stuff up and just had to use leftovers and it turned into me.( he was just joking)  but , I took it for real and then when ever anyone said something NOT nice to me I took it inwardly and held on for dear life.. So all of my life I have been defeated.. I will soon turn 62 years old  That is so sad isn't it ... to live your whole life letting other peoples ugliness control your life.  Moving on..


After my sons were born I ate and ate and ate and got bigger and bigger and bigger.  I finally quit smoking and I gained 80 pounds on top of the 40 I had never lost from having my sons.  So I was 120 pounds  heavier then I should be. I was pretty solid it was hard to tell that I was THAT much over weight but something just wasn't right in my body.  Here I was at 61 years of age and 230 pounds, and failing at being the person God had created me for .. I was a FAT SINNER!!.  I had gone to church  most of my life and I thought I was a Christian, hut here is where the effect comes in .. How does one effect the other?
To be a Christian , one must be Christ life. I wasn't.  I was full of Vickie and not of Christ.  Oh, I prayed and went to church and studied my Bible and thought I was doing all the right stuff.  But, I still had the same mind set of the world.  I was playing at being a Christian. I knew I needed to change and I prayed for changed, I just never dreamed it would come the way it did, in my health.


I went to the doctor and I believe that was the change I needed.. It is not fear of death or anything
like that. It was the fear of NOT being able to stand before God and give an account of my life. Change? You bet I am willing to change. I really do not want to disappoint God anymore than I have already.  I was the exact opposite of what I was praying for..
High Blood Sugar is really called , Diabetes. Change?  Yep, my lifestyle will have to change, not only will it change in the physical but it is changing in the spiritual as well.




I hope to be able to finish this in the next post.. Till then : Smile it is a free gift from God for you to share with all you meet. God Bless  your sister in Christ Jesus, vickie

A Glimpse Into Change: My Journey In The Race Of Life. Part 1.

Hello Beloved,


I was suppose to tell this at a Ladies meeting at church but sometimes things just happen. So I will share this with you on here.


Now, I had been praying for God to help me change:  The first step was admitting that I needed to change.
Well, I went to the doctor because of my ears and itching.. They were about to drive me crazy! I itched all over and was putting lotion on all the time because I thought  it was winter dry skin itch.. NOPE, it wasn't.  I was  tired and sleeping all the time, sad, moody and very irritable from all the itching, going to the bathroom all the time...I was a MESS!  I was not a very pleasant person to be around. I ate anything and everything  I wanted and did that mostly after 9 p.m.  Chips, pizza, ice-cream, cookies , candy, bread, . ( I love to bake and make goodies.)  I would drink sugared drinks right before bedtime and end up getting up three or so times a night.  I ate just to eat most of the time.


Well , I ended up at the doctor's office and when I went in and told him how much my ears bothered me, itching all the time and how my skin itched.  It was driving me nuts!!!  He looked at my chart , checked my weight and B.P. and all that and said : I am going to send my nurse back in to take a blood sample. That's what he did too! He did not even ask me about my ears!!  The nurse came in and took the sample and said that they would call in a few days with the results.  I went home and just ate. I was upset and angry because the Dr. had not even bothered with my ears.
Well, the few days passed and the nurse called with the results. I was NOT happy with what she told me.( In the back of my mind I think I knew what was coming and I did not want to hear it) She told me that they had done a three month panel ( A1C ) on my blood and it came back at an average 214 level. ( per day)  Okay, what does that mean?  I had HIGH BLOOD SUGAR.  NO!!!!!! You must have done it wrong( this was my reaction) NURSE:  Dr. wants to start you on some medicine. ( I don't know what she called it) NO. I told her I would do my own research and find out what I should do.  I was a very ugly, rude woman to that nurse. ( Yes, I did go out and face to face  apologize and ask for forgiveness from the nurse.) This meant I was going to have to do some research on what to eat, how to count carbs, watch how food was going to affect me... I was going to have to  CHANGE my way of living.


Before finding out all of this I had been praying for God to change me. Everyday I would start out saying TODAY.. I will not eat and will lose weight I will not be this huge ugly glutton.  I said it for months, but I did not change..( Repentance  is required to inherit eternal life.  What is repentance? It is having regret for all the evil and carnal ways of you, changing direction and turning your life towards Christ as your Savior.) I was living a carnal life of GLUTTONY! I NEEDED CHANGING!  I wanted a life that was living for Christ Jesus.
While praying about change in my spiritual life things were  changing in my physical life..  I am going deaf. I have had trouble with my hearing for many years but over this winter it seemed to escalate .. So changes were on the way..