Good Morning Beloved,
Powerful is the words we speak, do you agree?
"out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks." Matthew 12:34'
Do you know you can speak life or death into your own body? That when you say something
like " I am getting the flu" or I am sick with cold, sore throat, infection, or whatever; you have
established the enemy's word instead of God's Word.
1 Peter 2:24 ( KJV) " Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we being dead to sins should live unto righteousness : by whose strips ye (you) WERE healed." Not going to be healed but WERE healed. It took place on the cross 2000 years ago!!
Do you know that Satan is limited to what you say? The words you speak out of your own mouth!
So when you speak anything but God's Word you are establishing the enemy's word..
When you are asked to pray for someone , DO NOT pray your words but DO pray God's Words over them. Remember Matthew 13:34 " out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks."
What you believe comes out of your mouth.
Look at 2 Corinthians 4:13 and then look up Proverbs 6:2.
You don't want to be sick or you would not ask for prayer, right? Well, just remember to speak God's
Word and not the enemy's. Speak life not death..
I am writing this to myself today.. I am reading a book by Charles Capp and it is called ' The Tongue, A creative force. and this is what I read this morning.
I am still in the learning stages of my walk with Christ Jesus and I am grateful for insights I get from reading the Word and listening to others who have been in this for a long time...
God Bless you all tonight and remember to smile it is a free gift from God for you to share with all you meet. your sister in Christ Jesus
Tuesday, November 27, 2018
Friday, June 29, 2018
Psalm 23:1
Good Morning Beloved,
Have been pondering this verse; " THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD ". Have you ever wondered what a shepherd does? Well, I have being a city girl and all. ( smile) Here goes.....
A shepherd is a WATCHMAN. Watching out for the enemies of the sheep. He is also a GUARD, protecting his flock ( at the cost of his own). He is a GUIDE, guiding his flock to a safe place. He is a PHYSICIAN, taking care of the sick, lame and ailing members of his flock. The shepherd is also a SAVIOR. He rescues those sheep who are lost and hurting. He is a PROVIDER, He feeds his sheep and waters them, without him they cannot even feed themselves. He is also a LOVER, yes a lover of his sheep. He loves them so much he knows each one by name.
We have a shepherd too. The Good Shepherd, Jesus Christ. Jesus loves us!!! He watches over us, He guards us from our enemies, He guides us into ALL truth. He is our GREAT physician,( are you sick? hurting? In need of a physician?) and He provides our every need. He is our Savior . He went to the cross and gave His life up for us. So,
yes, Yes, YES!!!!! THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD.
REMEMBER: Smile. You are dressed in your best when you do!
Have been pondering this verse; " THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD ". Have you ever wondered what a shepherd does? Well, I have being a city girl and all. ( smile) Here goes.....
A shepherd is a WATCHMAN. Watching out for the enemies of the sheep. He is also a GUARD, protecting his flock ( at the cost of his own). He is a GUIDE, guiding his flock to a safe place. He is a PHYSICIAN, taking care of the sick, lame and ailing members of his flock. The shepherd is also a SAVIOR. He rescues those sheep who are lost and hurting. He is a PROVIDER, He feeds his sheep and waters them, without him they cannot even feed themselves. He is also a LOVER, yes a lover of his sheep. He loves them so much he knows each one by name.
We have a shepherd too. The Good Shepherd, Jesus Christ. Jesus loves us!!! He watches over us, He guards us from our enemies, He guides us into ALL truth. He is our GREAT physician,( are you sick? hurting? In need of a physician?) and He provides our every need. He is our Savior . He went to the cross and gave His life up for us. So,
yes, Yes, YES!!!!! THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD.
REMEMBER: Smile. You are dressed in your best when you do!
Tuesday, April 3, 2018
Want to Meet my Best Friend
Good Afternoon Beloved,
I want to tell you about a man I have met. He is so totally awesome!!!! I met Him through some letters I was reading. He is so sweet and tender and loving and just plain amazing! Through the letters I got to know about Him and His likes and dislikes and read about some amazing things that He had done. I learn that once you become friends with Him, you just start to glow from the inside. When He says that He loves you, He really means that He loves you!!
I am finding out He can be many things to me; like a Father, and Brother and very Best Friend. I have come to love Him so much and I just don't want to disappoint Him.
I guess by now you are wondering just who I am talking about, and you probably want to meet Him too! Well alright I guess I can share Him with you because He has the capabilities of being in many places and loving many people all at one time.
Hello Friends, I would like to introduce to you my very Best Friend who is also my Father and Brother; please say Hello to Jesus Christ who happens to also be my Savior.. Would you like to know about Him? I will talk to you about Him anytime, anyplace. Just say the time.
I hope you will want to meet and talk with my Jesus Christ He is so totally awesome!!
God Bless each of you and remember to smile: You are dressed in your best when you do.
Your sister in Christ, vickie
I want to tell you about a man I have met. He is so totally awesome!!!! I met Him through some letters I was reading. He is so sweet and tender and loving and just plain amazing! Through the letters I got to know about Him and His likes and dislikes and read about some amazing things that He had done. I learn that once you become friends with Him, you just start to glow from the inside. When He says that He loves you, He really means that He loves you!!
I am finding out He can be many things to me; like a Father, and Brother and very Best Friend. I have come to love Him so much and I just don't want to disappoint Him.
I guess by now you are wondering just who I am talking about, and you probably want to meet Him too! Well alright I guess I can share Him with you because He has the capabilities of being in many places and loving many people all at one time.
Hello Friends, I would like to introduce to you my very Best Friend who is also my Father and Brother; please say Hello to Jesus Christ who happens to also be my Savior.. Would you like to know about Him? I will talk to you about Him anytime, anyplace. Just say the time.
I hope you will want to meet and talk with my Jesus Christ He is so totally awesome!!
God Bless each of you and remember to smile: You are dressed in your best when you do.
Your sister in Christ, vickie
Thursday, March 8, 2018
March 1, 2018
Hello Beloved,
He is a post on face book from 3/21/18.
Do you know that God will forgive you everything except blasphemy against the Holy Spirit? What is blasphemy against the Holy Spirit? DENYING the Truth. Why is it unforgivable? Because it's source is a heart of malice, selfish preference of wrong over right , r evil or good, and a willful refusal to believe. In Isaiah 5:20 " Woe unto them that call evil good and good evil; that put darkness for light and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter! " The only sin that God is unable to forgive, is the UN willingness to accept forgiveness.
He is a post on face book from 3/21/18.
Do you know that God will forgive you everything except blasphemy against the Holy Spirit? What is blasphemy against the Holy Spirit? DENYING the Truth. Why is it unforgivable? Because it's source is a heart of malice, selfish preference of wrong over right , r evil or good, and a willful refusal to believe. In Isaiah 5:20 " Woe unto them that call evil good and good evil; that put darkness for light and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter! " The only sin that God is unable to forgive, is the UN willingness to accept forgiveness.
February 26, 2018
Hello Beloved,
This is a Face book post from 2/26/18. For I am not ashamed of the Gospel of Christ for it is the power of God unto salvation to everyone who believes: to the Jew first and also to the Greek.
Romans 1:16 . In Mark 16:15 . It is called the Great Commission ( an authorization to perform certain duties) So , this means as a person who believes in and has accepted Christ Jesus as Savior,
it is my authorized duty to tell you about Jesus Christ and what He has done for me.
Jesus Christ died on the cross and took all my sins, so I could have a personal relationship with Him. I asked for and received forgiveness of all my sins. I am covered by the Blood of the Lamb. On the cross Jesus said these words: " Father, forgive them for they know not what they do." Luke: 23:34.
You too can ask for forgiveness of your sins it is simple and easy... Just talk to Go our Father in heaven and ask... it really is just that simple. In II Timothy 3: 1-5 , It talks about what will happen in the last days with the church, and it IS happening now.. Churches who have turned away from and ignore the Cross and the power of the Holy Spirit. Sin is sin even if you or someone else says it is not. God' Word tell us what is sin. If you are looking for TRUTH then find a good Bible like the KJV and read it for yourself. God's Word is the only Truth.
I believe in Heaven and Hell. I don't want you to go to hell because I did not tell you the truth. Jesus Christ died for your sins and He loves you and wants to spend eternity with you, but, He will not chose for you , you have to make the choice. So, today would you please talk to Him and ask Him to come and be your Savior? Hell is when you spend eternity without the Love of God. This is all true. If you need to confirm look for yourself. God is waiting on you. I really do love you.
Monday, February 19, 2018
Forgiveness
Good Morning Beloved,
On this wet morning I want to write about forgiveness. It is such an important part of our daily lives.
forgiveness: pardon, cancel, overlook . This is what forgiveness means.
Have you ever had to say I'm sorry to someone? Have you ever had to ask them for forgiveness ? When you have done a wrong and you don't try to make amends then you start feeling bad or guilty , correct? Well, we all need to be forgiven for the wrongs we have done.. Wrongs are sins. Sin is sin, even when we do it. We are all sinners. God shows and proves His love for us that while we were sinners, Christ died for us . ( Romans 5:8) Now, that is pretty important don't ya think? As a matter of fact in Luke 23:34 it says this" Father, forgive them for they know not what they do." So, if Christ can forgive us, then we should forgive others too.
Have you been hurt by someone and find it hard to forgive them? Have you had to live with the anger, bitterness and depression, anxiety and yes even hatred in your heart? I have and it takes a toll on you and everyone around you. It affects how you live day by day, and affects how you react to people around you. All of that anger, bitterness , depression, anxiety and hatred is SIN in capital letters. It was a awful , horrible way to live and I finally had to do something about it.. I had to go and ask God to forgive me and He showed me how to forgive those who had hurt me. It was a struggle at times but with the Love of God and His Word and forgiveness from the ones around me I am an over comer! Praise God!! Thank you Christ Jesus !! I had to forgive for myself, so I could move forward and finally the ones I had to forgive , they even ask me for forgiveness. That meant everything to me... We could put it in the past and move forward.
If someone has hurt you and you are finding it hard to let it go then why don't you ask God for help? Even if the ones who hurt you don't know , you will know and it will make life so much easier. Christ forgave us on the cross and how can we do anything less then forgive the ones who have hurt us? Sis is sin even if it just a little sin, big or little they will have the same punishment. It is not a good place we will go if we don't ask for that forgiveness..
I love each and every person who will read this with the love of Christ Jesus. Please talk to Him and ask Him to forgive you.. When you forgive .... mean it: Christ meant it when He was on the cross. God bless you and remember to smile today , you are the most beautiful when you do.
On this wet morning I want to write about forgiveness. It is such an important part of our daily lives.
forgiveness: pardon, cancel, overlook . This is what forgiveness means.
Have you ever had to say I'm sorry to someone? Have you ever had to ask them for forgiveness ? When you have done a wrong and you don't try to make amends then you start feeling bad or guilty , correct? Well, we all need to be forgiven for the wrongs we have done.. Wrongs are sins. Sin is sin, even when we do it. We are all sinners. God shows and proves His love for us that while we were sinners, Christ died for us . ( Romans 5:8) Now, that is pretty important don't ya think? As a matter of fact in Luke 23:34 it says this" Father, forgive them for they know not what they do." So, if Christ can forgive us, then we should forgive others too.
Have you been hurt by someone and find it hard to forgive them? Have you had to live with the anger, bitterness and depression, anxiety and yes even hatred in your heart? I have and it takes a toll on you and everyone around you. It affects how you live day by day, and affects how you react to people around you. All of that anger, bitterness , depression, anxiety and hatred is SIN in capital letters. It was a awful , horrible way to live and I finally had to do something about it.. I had to go and ask God to forgive me and He showed me how to forgive those who had hurt me. It was a struggle at times but with the Love of God and His Word and forgiveness from the ones around me I am an over comer! Praise God!! Thank you Christ Jesus !! I had to forgive for myself, so I could move forward and finally the ones I had to forgive , they even ask me for forgiveness. That meant everything to me... We could put it in the past and move forward.
If someone has hurt you and you are finding it hard to let it go then why don't you ask God for help? Even if the ones who hurt you don't know , you will know and it will make life so much easier. Christ forgave us on the cross and how can we do anything less then forgive the ones who have hurt us? Sis is sin even if it just a little sin, big or little they will have the same punishment. It is not a good place we will go if we don't ask for that forgiveness..
I love each and every person who will read this with the love of Christ Jesus. Please talk to Him and ask Him to forgive you.. When you forgive .... mean it: Christ meant it when He was on the cross. God bless you and remember to smile today , you are the most beautiful when you do.
Sunday, February 18, 2018
My Personal Testimony
Good Afternoon Beloved,
This morning in church our pastor talked about what we are suppose to do as a church. Not a building but as a church body. How we are to go about letting people know what Christ Jesus has done for us, personally. Well, that is what I am going to do today in this post. One post will not really tell all the story but it will be a start .
I have been in search of who I am most of my life. As a child I went to Sunday School and heard all the bible stories. As a teen I went to church( mostly looking at the boys) Got married in my teens and started having my family. At age 22 I had my family. When I was 26 years old I went back to church and heard a sermon that changed my life. I went down and ask Jesus Christ into my heart and was baptized in water then. I went on trying to raise my family the best I could and somehow life just got in the way... It was not until I was in my late 40's that I became serious about my relationship with Christ Jesus .. I had be a back slider for a long time, like I said life just got in the way. BUT GOD. I have to Praise God for friends, real friends who cared not just for me as a person but for my eternal soul.
I was having trouble in my marriage and I wanted out, very badly I wanted out. My husband and sons were a mess as was I. My friend would come by and invite me to go with her to church but I did not want anything to do with church. I just wanted my life to change. I had been to church and my life was not all that.. She just would not leave me alone . I told her I would go one time and after that she had better leave me alone. She said OK, sure, we'll see. She knew something I didn't. Well, I did go with her to church one evening and that evening something happened inside of me.. I became alive again.. She knew this would happen, she told me later.
A few months later, I was getting ready for church and my husband said he would come with me.. He did and sat on the front row and something happened to him that morning and he went down and ask Christ Jesus into his heart and he was baptized in water that morning. This was a HUGE BIG DEAL!!!! From that moment on life has been different and has changed. Yes, we still have our ups and downs but how we deal with it is so different now.
It is about choosing how to live. With Christ Jesus in our life or with out Him. Without Christ in my life I was on the road to Hell.
I am so glad that Jesus came to live in my heart, I would be lost with out Him.
More next time. Smile: You are your most beautiful when you do.
This morning in church our pastor talked about what we are suppose to do as a church. Not a building but as a church body. How we are to go about letting people know what Christ Jesus has done for us, personally. Well, that is what I am going to do today in this post. One post will not really tell all the story but it will be a start .
I have been in search of who I am most of my life. As a child I went to Sunday School and heard all the bible stories. As a teen I went to church( mostly looking at the boys) Got married in my teens and started having my family. At age 22 I had my family. When I was 26 years old I went back to church and heard a sermon that changed my life. I went down and ask Jesus Christ into my heart and was baptized in water then. I went on trying to raise my family the best I could and somehow life just got in the way... It was not until I was in my late 40's that I became serious about my relationship with Christ Jesus .. I had be a back slider for a long time, like I said life just got in the way. BUT GOD. I have to Praise God for friends, real friends who cared not just for me as a person but for my eternal soul.
I was having trouble in my marriage and I wanted out, very badly I wanted out. My husband and sons were a mess as was I. My friend would come by and invite me to go with her to church but I did not want anything to do with church. I just wanted my life to change. I had been to church and my life was not all that.. She just would not leave me alone . I told her I would go one time and after that she had better leave me alone. She said OK, sure, we'll see. She knew something I didn't. Well, I did go with her to church one evening and that evening something happened inside of me.. I became alive again.. She knew this would happen, she told me later.
A few months later, I was getting ready for church and my husband said he would come with me.. He did and sat on the front row and something happened to him that morning and he went down and ask Christ Jesus into his heart and he was baptized in water that morning. This was a HUGE BIG DEAL!!!! From that moment on life has been different and has changed. Yes, we still have our ups and downs but how we deal with it is so different now.
It is about choosing how to live. With Christ Jesus in our life or with out Him. Without Christ in my life I was on the road to Hell.
I am so glad that Jesus came to live in my heart, I would be lost with out Him.
More next time. Smile: You are your most beautiful when you do.
Tuesday, February 6, 2018
Random Thoughts Today
Good Morning Beloved,
It is cold outside but the sun is shinning and looks so pretty glistening on the snow. Onward.
I have so many things running through my mind today. January was kind of a hard month this year.. I missed a lot of church for one reason or another and I don't like not going to church. It is where I get fueled up for the rest of the week. Okay moving on....
I have been re reading a book by Johnathan Cahn called " The Mystery of the Shemitah" . I came across something in it today that I thought pretty cool. On page 250 it is titled YESHUA. It says
" How can one be safe in the days of judgment ? " The answer is that in Hebrew, the word for safety is yesha and also means salvation. Jesus Christ is our safety and salvation.. If you are living outside of Christ on judgment day then you have no safety or salvation.. Pretty scary if you ask me.. So, take time today to talk to God and ask Him to come into your heart and make yourself ready to stand before Christ on judgment day.
Here is another thought running in my head. In Luke 16:19-31 it tell about a rich man and poor man.
I don't know why preachers don't teach this.. It is so important.. I will just paraphrase it. Rich man had everything, food, clothes, home, and lived having a good time. While the poor man , Lazarus , had to beg for alms ( money, food) he was covered in sores and the dogs licked the sores. Now, Lazarus was carried by angels to the bosom of Abraham; the rich man was buried and in torment in Hades( place of the dead). Rich man looked up and saw father Abraham and Lazarus and cried out send Lazarus to dip his finger in water to cool my tongue. Abraham tells the rich man , you had your comforts and delights , and Lazarus had his discomforts and distresses , now Lazarus is being comforted and you are in anguish. The great chasm ( a deep crack in the earth's surface ; gorge, abyss) we can not come to you nor you to us. The rich man begged for Lazarus to go back and tell his brothers what it was like where he was.. Abraham told him they have Moses and the prophets to listen too . Rich man: But if someone from the dead were to go and tell them they will repent. Abraham: If they will not listen to Moses and the prophets they will not even listen to someone raised from the dead... Moral here. Heaven and Hell are both real places.. You will have all your senses in either place. If you want to be where Abraham and Lazarus are then you better listen to what Moses and the prophets were saying.. If you want to be like the rich man and be in that place of torment for eternity then go ahead and not listen to Moses and the prophets and do it you r way. Just remember this from 2 Peter 2:4 " God did not even spare the angels that sinned , but cast them into hell". Beloved, YOU HAVE TO BE BORN AGAIN . Take time today to start your relationship with Christ Jesus..
The fearful, unbelieving, abominable( to hate) murders, whore mongers ( pimps, pander) sorcerers( witchcraft) and idolaters ( putting anything before God) and ALL liars will join the devil and his demons in the Lake of fire and this will be the second death.
Beloved, please today talk with God and make your calling sure.
In the love of Christ Jesus, your sister in Christ vickie
It is cold outside but the sun is shinning and looks so pretty glistening on the snow. Onward.
I have so many things running through my mind today. January was kind of a hard month this year.. I missed a lot of church for one reason or another and I don't like not going to church. It is where I get fueled up for the rest of the week. Okay moving on....
I have been re reading a book by Johnathan Cahn called " The Mystery of the Shemitah" . I came across something in it today that I thought pretty cool. On page 250 it is titled YESHUA. It says
" How can one be safe in the days of judgment ? " The answer is that in Hebrew, the word for safety is yesha and also means salvation. Jesus Christ is our safety and salvation.. If you are living outside of Christ on judgment day then you have no safety or salvation.. Pretty scary if you ask me.. So, take time today to talk to God and ask Him to come into your heart and make yourself ready to stand before Christ on judgment day.
Here is another thought running in my head. In Luke 16:19-31 it tell about a rich man and poor man.
I don't know why preachers don't teach this.. It is so important.. I will just paraphrase it. Rich man had everything, food, clothes, home, and lived having a good time. While the poor man , Lazarus , had to beg for alms ( money, food) he was covered in sores and the dogs licked the sores. Now, Lazarus was carried by angels to the bosom of Abraham; the rich man was buried and in torment in Hades( place of the dead). Rich man looked up and saw father Abraham and Lazarus and cried out send Lazarus to dip his finger in water to cool my tongue. Abraham tells the rich man , you had your comforts and delights , and Lazarus had his discomforts and distresses , now Lazarus is being comforted and you are in anguish. The great chasm ( a deep crack in the earth's surface ; gorge, abyss) we can not come to you nor you to us. The rich man begged for Lazarus to go back and tell his brothers what it was like where he was.. Abraham told him they have Moses and the prophets to listen too . Rich man: But if someone from the dead were to go and tell them they will repent. Abraham: If they will not listen to Moses and the prophets they will not even listen to someone raised from the dead... Moral here. Heaven and Hell are both real places.. You will have all your senses in either place. If you want to be where Abraham and Lazarus are then you better listen to what Moses and the prophets were saying.. If you want to be like the rich man and be in that place of torment for eternity then go ahead and not listen to Moses and the prophets and do it you r way. Just remember this from 2 Peter 2:4 " God did not even spare the angels that sinned , but cast them into hell". Beloved, YOU HAVE TO BE BORN AGAIN . Take time today to start your relationship with Christ Jesus..
The fearful, unbelieving, abominable( to hate) murders, whore mongers ( pimps, pander) sorcerers( witchcraft) and idolaters ( putting anything before God) and ALL liars will join the devil and his demons in the Lake of fire and this will be the second death.
Beloved, please today talk with God and make your calling sure.
In the love of Christ Jesus, your sister in Christ vickie
Sunday, January 28, 2018
Answered Prayer
Hello Beloved,
This is a very personal note that I am writing tonight... Don't even think I will post it. It may sound like rambling but it will come clear by the end I hope.
I have suffered for many years with a terrible inferiority complex, depression what ever it is to be called. I grew up thinking of myself as the most unloved human on the planet. I have believed this all of my life. I would talk to myself and say what I thought others were thinking and in time it became so real for me... I started to believe all the lies I was telling myself. How I was stupid , ugly, not wanted, ect..... the list goes on and on , it is never ending.:
Now I will fast forward .... I went out week before last and spent some time with one of my sisters. It was so wonderful to see her.
Then the next day..... She got a text and it set the mood for the rest of my stay with her.
We talked about the text and I got on my " big mouth, know more than you know "box. I sprouted out and sprouted out when I should have just been a shoulder to cry on... But , Oh not me! I had to open my very big mouth and insert my big foot!! Needless to say the visit was not what I had hoped it would be..
Time to come home... Got home after a 13 hour car ride and part of that in a very dense fog.. Thought I was glad to be home but then I went to bed and could not sleep much. This went on all week long.. Then last night I could not sleep and my thinking had been way off all week and it just got worse in the night . I set up and thought ugly, ugly thoughts.. I even sat down and wrote out a note .. I just really hated who I was and all that I had down wrong in my life and just wanted to end it right then and there. I was all cried out and so, so tired... I still had enough presence of mind to not try anything so I laid down and still my mind was on full force .. no sleep . So I had no one to talk to and I talked to God. I talk to God a lot as I don't really have anyone else to talk to. People just don't seem to want to be friends in person anymore it is all about texting..
Well I talked to God and I ask Him why I could not be more like Him. Why am I the one who cant seem to be filled with the Spirit and pray in the Spirit? I just don't understand.. Long story short I did not go to church this morning.. I was still full of hate and hurt. Well I did go to church tonight and guess what it was about? Yep, It was about being filled with the Holy Spirt and how to go about it.. Just exactly what I had talked to God about.. Now I don't about you but I believe God answered my distressed prayer of last night tonight and that it pretty quick. The devil is not what is keeping me from being filled with the Holy Spirt but my flesh is. I sure have a long way to go.. Thank you Father God for answering my prayer.
This is a very personal note that I am writing tonight... Don't even think I will post it. It may sound like rambling but it will come clear by the end I hope.
I have suffered for many years with a terrible inferiority complex, depression what ever it is to be called. I grew up thinking of myself as the most unloved human on the planet. I have believed this all of my life. I would talk to myself and say what I thought others were thinking and in time it became so real for me... I started to believe all the lies I was telling myself. How I was stupid , ugly, not wanted, ect..... the list goes on and on , it is never ending.:
Now I will fast forward .... I went out week before last and spent some time with one of my sisters. It was so wonderful to see her.
Then the next day..... She got a text and it set the mood for the rest of my stay with her.
We talked about the text and I got on my " big mouth, know more than you know "box. I sprouted out and sprouted out when I should have just been a shoulder to cry on... But , Oh not me! I had to open my very big mouth and insert my big foot!! Needless to say the visit was not what I had hoped it would be..
Time to come home... Got home after a 13 hour car ride and part of that in a very dense fog.. Thought I was glad to be home but then I went to bed and could not sleep much. This went on all week long.. Then last night I could not sleep and my thinking had been way off all week and it just got worse in the night . I set up and thought ugly, ugly thoughts.. I even sat down and wrote out a note .. I just really hated who I was and all that I had down wrong in my life and just wanted to end it right then and there. I was all cried out and so, so tired... I still had enough presence of mind to not try anything so I laid down and still my mind was on full force .. no sleep . So I had no one to talk to and I talked to God. I talk to God a lot as I don't really have anyone else to talk to. People just don't seem to want to be friends in person anymore it is all about texting..
Well I talked to God and I ask Him why I could not be more like Him. Why am I the one who cant seem to be filled with the Spirit and pray in the Spirit? I just don't understand.. Long story short I did not go to church this morning.. I was still full of hate and hurt. Well I did go to church tonight and guess what it was about? Yep, It was about being filled with the Holy Spirt and how to go about it.. Just exactly what I had talked to God about.. Now I don't about you but I believe God answered my distressed prayer of last night tonight and that it pretty quick. The devil is not what is keeping me from being filled with the Holy Spirt but my flesh is. I sure have a long way to go.. Thank you Father God for answering my prayer.
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