Hi,
I will just go on from last post.

I was moved to a room on the second floor of the hospital. I was told not to move around as they
needed to have my doctor come and see me.... Well after they settled me in , I had my visitors
for abit then all left and I was finally alone ... For the next two days I laid in that bed not moving much... I was not even hungry and I couldn't watch tv to well, so I just laid and thought..
Now on that wall was a clock and a cruifix.. This is what I looked at and thought about for the next two days..
Have you ever thought about what Christ Jesus went through BEFORE he was hung on the cross? How he was treated and why? What kind of pain he had to endure and for whom?
What each and every second must have been like for Him? I counted seconds off that clock
for 48 hours! It was not fun lying there not able to take deep breaths and that set me to thinking about Christ Jesus.. I don't remember much about what went on in that room with
people poping in and out but I remember how much it hurt me to think that I was the reason
Jesus went to that cross...
I came home and went to see a specialist and had to wear a neck brace for 8 weeks. In that 8 weeks I had to be humbled.. I am a very independant person and I like to do for you but not you for me.. That was lesson # 2. I have learned how to accept help now and I think I am maybe the better for it..
I went back to work right before Christmas and was so glad to be back in the public again.
While I was off they hired a new person at work and she and I had our differences. Long story short, I was only back to work about 10 months and I was let go.... That was a great big blow
to me, not just because of the money but because of self-esteem.. I had none. I spoke when I should not have , she was the favorite with the boss so I was ask to leave.. I have been out now for about 14 1/2 months or so and just recently found out the reason I was ask to leave was because I pray to much.. SO if you lose your job and it is for the same reason. PRAISE GOD!!!
I tell you true it was a long and hard strugggle that first year for me. I began to lose hope and faith.. But God wasnt't done with me.... Oh, thank you Jesus.
I have a great church family and friends... They kept me in prayer and one of my sisters who is the dearest and sweetest girl I know just keep sending me things via email... God Bless her...
So in September 2009 she sent something to me and I have adopted it as my own now.. I will share with you ... The short version is :
" Starting today and for the next 29 days I will pray for __________."

Well I did this and prayed all of October faithfully. On Novermber 6 at a conference at church
I know that God answerd that pray.. Not just for me but for many people at that conference.. To God goes all the Glory!
The morning of 6 Novemeber, I had taken some food out to the church and one of the
elders was there... she and I just talked about this and that... I left and then that evening I went back for services.... something happened that night that has forever changed me... I will tell you more in another post.
Smile , when you do you are dressed your best! billiemae